The Love of My God

Hi All!

A blank Blog- A blank canvas! Sort of like my life right now. I felt that I should be blogging again- I want to get my thoughts and dreams down and share them with whoever cares to read.
There is so much going on! I do not even know where this post is going...

This weekend Ross and I went to Walla Walla to check out Walla Walla University. I absolutely fell in love with the school, fell in love with the program and fell in love with the city! It is such beautiful wine country and the people are so nice. The program really excited me! I sat with the Dean of the Social Work program for over an hour, just chatting away in her office. We covered all kinds of ground- even how we felt about the Osama Bin Laden thing. I was having a really hard time describing how I felt to her and she felt the same way. Today, I was reading some facebook notes and stumbled across a friend's note posting a Martin Luther King Jr. quote. I want to share it here and make sure it is something that I save and remember:

"I do not rejoice in the death of an enemy. I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even and enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."

So beautiful and exactly what I have been trying to articulate. What I felt on May 2nd was simply complete sadness. Sadness that death was necessary. Sadness that this man was so sick that he did what he did to so many people. Sadness everything has gone down this way. I return to a quote that I heard while studying at Mars Hill again and again... Unfortunately I cannot find the exact quote anywhere (the quoter believed it to be C.S. Lewis). When this man was asked if Hitler was in heaven or hell, he replied something along the lines of "he is in the arms of Jesus and they are both weeping." If any one ever stumbles across this exact quote please let me know! Regardless- this opened my eyes to see a more complete picture of God and the love He has for his children. I suppose this week I have been feeling that sense of weeping for the sadness and destruction that has been Osama Bin Laden's life, the sadness and destruction that his actions have brought to so many people, so many families, and so much sadness that He didn't know the love of my God.